Post 1

I was told I should blog to help me get my feelings out about being diagnosed with cancer, and going through treatments...

Let's start with CANCER SUCKS! Hows that for a thought...No this won't be an angry post were I do nothing but bitch. But ask anyone who has had to deal with cancer(themselves or family)...it freakin' sucks!

I will never forget the day that I was told I had cancer. How could you? It's the day your life changes forever. A million things run through your head. Why, being the most prominent question in my mind for several hours. Of course that one is followed up by it's friend, HOW? Then over the next few days you google as much information as you possibly can while you TRY to wrap your head around it.

Trying to tell your family and friends you have cancer is a whole new level of stress and problems. I know, I know, your family is your best support system! And mine is great! But trying to tell them the devastating news that you yourself are still processing isn't easy. I was in the doctors office by myself when I got the cancer diagnosis. I had not considered that cancer was a possibility, and went in alone. I kept it together and fought back the tears until I got in my car. Then the bottom fell out. I called Mark first. He was calm, and collected just like he always is. He listened to me "bawl and squall" and reassured me everything would be fine. I called my mom next. Same "bawling and squalling" and same amazing support.

Next came the battery of test. Scan upon scan. Enough blood work that I thought they may bleed me dry. And really, it was all a whirlwind. I really have to stop and think about the order all those test were in.

After the crazy testing we knew exactly what we were dealing with, Hodgkins Lymphoma. And from there my amazing oncologist laid out a game plan and we got to work. I will post later about each procedure, because honestly there are so many, and some so painful, that they deserve their own post, lol.

Game Plan...
--Chemo--
--Radiation--


I have already completed chemo, and start radiation next week. Again, they each deserve their own post. Plus, I have used all the energy I could muster up to post right now anyway, lol.

I am going to try to post at least once a week from now on....