Stressing out....

Today is day one of radiation. To say I'm stressing out about it is an understatement! I am claustrophobic, so the mask I have to wear is a big problem for me. I am not really worried about the radiation itself, although maybe I should be. We had a "trial run" last week and I had to be on the radiation table for almost 45 minutes! I almost lost my mind a few times! Today should only last about 10 minutes, so it is nothing in comparison. I have been trying to figure out a way to calm myself down, reduce my anxiety while I have the mask on. Everyone tells me to take deep breaths and relax. Of course neither of those are easy while your face is squished in a mask and you can move. But I am going to try! The doctor gave me anxiety meds, but I can't take them and still function. I can't be all doped up and still go to work after treatment. So here goes nothing! Fingers crossed that it goes quickly.